It's funny, when I feel perky and relatively awake, I don't wanna pen down a single word in this blog. But when I feel glazed over, tired and lethargic, the dams just break down on their own and unleash torrential tsunamis of literary produce into my long-forsaken web log.
First of all, Merry Christmas my dear readers. :)
What a year it has been, or rather, what a half-year it has been, since the beginning of the year was mundane and recital, boring. What made 2009 memorable was the second half, when things along and around my locus of control went on a roller-coaster ride. Thrilling yes, but at the plunge, your heart threatens to pop out of the protective confines of the rib-cage, jerking me back to those times. I thought I had felt the last of those sordid emotions for a while, but the Scriptwriter had other ideas.
How much longer must this continue? My emotions will hold, but I don't know how long they can hold for much longer.
Where Is She?
I don't wanna make the same mistake as before, don't wanna commit to something I have little confidence for. It just isn't fair, for Her mostly, not much for me. I don't want that to happen. I have to be 100% sure before I take the next step. All the distractions, all the temptation, I have resisted. However the question remains: for how long?
Please, appear soon. Till then, I'll live my life the way it is for the past 21 years.
In emotional solitude.
