Your destruction is the will of the Gods,and we are their instrument,the sentence read.It was as meaningful as it was scary,with a sinister alter-meaning behind it.Just reading that sentence gives me both the shivers and an overhwleming sense of awe.With that,I closed the book and returned to waiting for my very late friend,silently promising to deliver a fatal blow to his spine if he does not turn up in five minutes.
It was then she appeared,like a goddess,desecending from the clouds,with a face and aura to match.I could not peel my eyes off her.No,I can't let matters of the heart get into my way,not at this time of the year.My head says 'NO!',but my heart says 'YES!'.I was in a dilemma,torn between the devil and the deep blue sea.In the end I resisted and choose...the deep blue sea.With a heavy heart,I trudged off into the shopping centre.A small,barely audible sigh emnamated behind me.
The next day,I had another appointment with the same friend at the same shopping centre.As I made my way there,I silently wished that she would reappear as she did yesterday,as suddenly and as beautiful.And what do you know,there she was,as perfect and as innocent as time had left her.My heart started to intensify its beating,to my discomfort.The urge to get to know her better was tearing me apart,but no matter how great the strain was I always resisted,until now.
Resistance is futile.
What?My heart.It broadcasted those ominous words into my neural network,making me lose my focus in curbing my feelings for a spilt second.However,it did not just halt there.
Resistance is futile.You will comply.
No...I cannot succumb to my desires...not now,not at this crucial point in my life.The message however,really appealed to me.Ah! I could not hold on any longer! But I had to...for my future's sake.I held on,my upper canines leaving incision marks on my lower lips.
Resistance is futile.You will adapt.
The stress was becoming too great.My will was losing a vital battle to an enemy that was once an ally, and that could barely be fought.I stole a glance at her.She shot up,her long flowing brown hair falling into place around her petite face,her blue-green eyes bulging in a most remarkably beautiful fashion.It could be due to the fact that I thrust my head up too forcefully,startling her.At that instant, her eyes met mine.They seemed to exude a radiance so brillant,so bright,and so powerful.In a figment of my own imagination,those windows to the world seemed to unleash a stream of crackling electricity into my own,blinding me,separating me from my will,numbing my conscience and all its affiliates,effectively putting an end to the resistance I had been working so hard to maintain.The war was over,with my heart the victor.
Resistance is and always has been,futile.
To Be Continued...
Friday, January 07, 2005
Love,A Myth? Part 2
With the last remnants of resistance eradicated from my system,I plucked up the courage to ask her for her friendship.I stood up,and started towards her.She just sat there,oblivious to the presence moving towards her, that was trembling all the way.Finally,she decided to notice me and swivelled her pretty little head towards my direction,cocked in a fashion that seemed to ask:"Yes?" I froze. All the courage that had been gathered up during the journey to her position was immeidately torn asunder. Abort. I tried to tell myself,but it wouldn't listen.Slowly,inch by inch,my feet pulled me towards her,towards certain doom.
Alas, doom did not come on a swift steed.Instead blessing came charging forward.She smiled at me.Actually twitched her mouth muscles into a U-shaped smile directed at me.At that instant,I felt my entire being fill with a comfortable sense of ease and pleasure,permeating every nook and cranny of my exsistence.I returned her friendly gesture.
She nodded in acknowledgement.
Then,as I made to leave,I heard a "Psst...Psst..." coming from behind me.It was her,and was motioning me to her side with one slender arm.My eyes widened.My heart skipped a beat.A cold sweat began to break out from every pore on my body.My mind blanked out.My feet,however, continued its normal functioning and moved,with small deliberate steps,towards her once more.
"Aye,aye.You waiting for Paul issit?"she quizzed,in a cute,little girl voice.
"Erm...y-ya...",I nervously replied,throwing grammar to the winds.
She chuckled.A small,lady-like giggle,that was music to my ears."You don't have to be so nervous and fidgety you know...Its not like I would eat you up or something...Hee hee..."She lamented,and giggled again.
"Sure,"It took all of my concentration to say that nonchalantly,but I think my voice still trembled.
"Since we're both waiting for our companions,what say we chat?"She asked,throwing me another one of her radiant smiles.
"Ok!"I must have sounded awful,as I was so happy.Happy would be an understatment though.I was practically over the moon.
And so we did.We exchanged email addresses and names,as well as andecotes about our lives. She seemed particularly interested in my affairs,but it must be wishful thinking on my part,for I refuse to believe that such a perfect female specimen did not have a male partner.Although I very much wanted to believe that,the painful blade of reailty and practicality swept in,making it very very difficult.And I was right.
Soon,Paul arrived.When I was almost going to bid her farewell, she hailed Paul,and much to my amazement and shock,held his waiting hand.
To Be Continued...
Alas, doom did not come on a swift steed.Instead blessing came charging forward.She smiled at me.Actually twitched her mouth muscles into a U-shaped smile directed at me.At that instant,I felt my entire being fill with a comfortable sense of ease and pleasure,permeating every nook and cranny of my exsistence.I returned her friendly gesture.
She nodded in acknowledgement.
Then,as I made to leave,I heard a "Psst...Psst..." coming from behind me.It was her,and was motioning me to her side with one slender arm.My eyes widened.My heart skipped a beat.A cold sweat began to break out from every pore on my body.My mind blanked out.My feet,however, continued its normal functioning and moved,with small deliberate steps,towards her once more.
"Aye,aye.You waiting for Paul issit?"she quizzed,in a cute,little girl voice.
"Erm...y-ya...",I nervously replied,throwing grammar to the winds.
She chuckled.A small,lady-like giggle,that was music to my ears."You don't have to be so nervous and fidgety you know...Its not like I would eat you up or something...Hee hee..."She lamented,and giggled again.
"Sure,"It took all of my concentration to say that nonchalantly,but I think my voice still trembled.
"Since we're both waiting for our companions,what say we chat?"She asked,throwing me another one of her radiant smiles.
"Ok!"I must have sounded awful,as I was so happy.Happy would be an understatment though.I was practically over the moon.
And so we did.We exchanged email addresses and names,as well as andecotes about our lives. She seemed particularly interested in my affairs,but it must be wishful thinking on my part,for I refuse to believe that such a perfect female specimen did not have a male partner.Although I very much wanted to believe that,the painful blade of reailty and practicality swept in,making it very very difficult.And I was right.
Soon,Paul arrived.When I was almost going to bid her farewell, she hailed Paul,and much to my amazement and shock,held his waiting hand.
To Be Continued...
Love,A Myth? Part 3
What the? Nan des ka?Paul,my best friend,was actually the other half of the perfect female specimen.I could hardly contain my shock.My pupils expanded,then contracted painfully.I could feel the tears welling up in the corner of my eye,waiting to gush out in roaring torrents the moment I slip up in keeping the dam gates sealed.As I looked painfully at Paul,his apocalyptic eyes shot back.They seemed to utter:Your destruction is the will of the Gods,and I am their instrument! My thumb,index and third fingers twitched uncontrollably,like the talons of a vicious eagle,wanting to personally tear out the eyes of Paul from their sockets, along with the nerve ends and all other attachments.My left arm swung out,fingers poised to kill.
I checked my hand.No point going to jail over this.It just wasn't worth it.
Dejected and despondent,I hung my head.After mumbling a lame excuse to the pair I hastily left the premises,the sunlight reflecting off my steadily increasing tear drops clearly visible,as if a stream of stars had been released from my eyes.As I sprinted towards the bus stop,I heard yet another barely audible sigh behind me,but didn't stop to care.
At home,I lay in bed.The stereo was playing Do As Infinity's Fukai Mori,a touching,wonderfully done piece of music.Normally when I listen to this song,I would close my eyes and relax,and allow the music to manipulate me anyway it pleased.It was just too wonderful.However,this time,as my ears took in the saddening lyrics,warm tears dripped down my emciated cheeks,and I finally opened my heart out and cried for a whole minute,an event never chronicled before in my life.
I got over it soon enough.No use crying over spilt milk.No point giving up an entire rainforest for a mere conifer.I dropped her from my head and added her to my 'Friends' list,although deep down I wished that she would stay the way before,before Paul came into the picture.The very thought of that sent my rage soaring.
The next day,I was at the shopping centre again,where it all began,when we first met.Silently hoping that she would be around,I walked around the sprawling complex.I passed by a pet shop and paused my journey to go in and have a look.The frisky kittens jumped up and down in their basket,making such cute mewing noises,soothing my battered soul.They also reminded me of her childish giggles.Thus,I made a decision. I decided to visit the bathroom.
The bathroom was a few feet away,on the other end of the level.Two transparent plastic cylinders with streaks of blue lightning sizzling in them flanked the entrance,an advertising gimmick most probably.Allowing myself a private laugh at them as I made my way to my terminal destination,I did not notice someone so vaguely familiar coming my way.When I finally got a glimpse of the person,my laughing stopped.
It was her.
Alone.
I swallowed,then proceeded to take evasive action.I dove for the nearest bench.As I did,time seemed to slow down.Everything slowed to a crawl,including the lightning bolt exhibits by the entrance.She,however was unaffected.I closed my eyes and waited for the inevitable.
"Hey!"
Taken aback by the sudden outburst of English,I opened my eyes,and fell face first... to the cold,hard,unfeeling marble flooring.My pride was hurt more than my body by that silly move.Some evasive action...
But that got her attention though,which wasn't good.She advanced towards me,at an alarming rate which I had never thought possible for a girl of her physique.She kneeled down beside me and tended to my wounds,which were almost non-exsistent.It could be an excuse,but i would never know.At that point in time,I felt that I was in heaven,with an angel beside me.I felt so wonderful,the best feeling I felt in more than 48 hours.It was sheer bliss... But I knew this period would end.
Soon.
To Be Continued...
I checked my hand.No point going to jail over this.It just wasn't worth it.
Dejected and despondent,I hung my head.After mumbling a lame excuse to the pair I hastily left the premises,the sunlight reflecting off my steadily increasing tear drops clearly visible,as if a stream of stars had been released from my eyes.As I sprinted towards the bus stop,I heard yet another barely audible sigh behind me,but didn't stop to care.
At home,I lay in bed.The stereo was playing Do As Infinity's Fukai Mori,a touching,wonderfully done piece of music.Normally when I listen to this song,I would close my eyes and relax,and allow the music to manipulate me anyway it pleased.It was just too wonderful.However,this time,as my ears took in the saddening lyrics,warm tears dripped down my emciated cheeks,and I finally opened my heart out and cried for a whole minute,an event never chronicled before in my life.
I got over it soon enough.No use crying over spilt milk.No point giving up an entire rainforest for a mere conifer.I dropped her from my head and added her to my 'Friends' list,although deep down I wished that she would stay the way before,before Paul came into the picture.The very thought of that sent my rage soaring.
The next day,I was at the shopping centre again,where it all began,when we first met.Silently hoping that she would be around,I walked around the sprawling complex.I passed by a pet shop and paused my journey to go in and have a look.The frisky kittens jumped up and down in their basket,making such cute mewing noises,soothing my battered soul.They also reminded me of her childish giggles.Thus,I made a decision. I decided to visit the bathroom.
The bathroom was a few feet away,on the other end of the level.Two transparent plastic cylinders with streaks of blue lightning sizzling in them flanked the entrance,an advertising gimmick most probably.Allowing myself a private laugh at them as I made my way to my terminal destination,I did not notice someone so vaguely familiar coming my way.When I finally got a glimpse of the person,my laughing stopped.
It was her.
Alone.
I swallowed,then proceeded to take evasive action.I dove for the nearest bench.As I did,time seemed to slow down.Everything slowed to a crawl,including the lightning bolt exhibits by the entrance.She,however was unaffected.I closed my eyes and waited for the inevitable.
"Hey!"
Taken aback by the sudden outburst of English,I opened my eyes,and fell face first... to the cold,hard,unfeeling marble flooring.My pride was hurt more than my body by that silly move.Some evasive action...
But that got her attention though,which wasn't good.She advanced towards me,at an alarming rate which I had never thought possible for a girl of her physique.She kneeled down beside me and tended to my wounds,which were almost non-exsistent.It could be an excuse,but i would never know.At that point in time,I felt that I was in heaven,with an angel beside me.I felt so wonderful,the best feeling I felt in more than 48 hours.It was sheer bliss... But I knew this period would end.
Soon.
To Be Continued...
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